THE hype from the latest instalment of the Star Wars has got me down because it's made me feel like I've missed out.
I am 27-years-old and I have never watched a single Star Wars movie.
I won't be one of the geek chic lined up in a Jabberwocky costume with a light-sabre in hand at the mid-night viewing this Wednesday- so please be easy in your judgement of me.
Star Wars, Star Trek, Star Gate, they're all the same, aren't they?
Actors with elf ears wielding sabres, dressed in hairy costumes or tight shirts with endless dialogue about the world or universe's imminent end thanks to dastardly humanoid aliens.
No doubt, these movies and shows are all brilliant and I don't laugh at anyone who takes it seriously.
But I can't.
The only show in this genre I did was "The X-Files", when I was about six.
The nightmares were endless as I crept from bed at night to watch in secret from behind the living room couch, wide-eyed in horror, as agents Mulder and Scully told viewers the "truth is out there".
Don't even get me started on the horror of E.T. and my own family's tales of min-min lights and UFO sightings when on night-time drive outings.
Too many frightening childhood thoughts stored in the recesses of my mind will come flooding back.
Seeing the costumed Star Wars fan in Jabberwocky attire could just send me over the edge...
WHEN I was asked to write about why I love Star Wars I couldn't help but reflect on the fact I don't particularly like two of the six films.
The podrace and Qui-Gon Jinn and Obi-Wan Kenobi's battle with Darth Maul at the end of Phantom Menace were the only good parts of that films, while Attack of the Clones had a few more redeeming qualities (the battle at Geonosis was my highlight) though still wasn't overly great.
My love for the series has never waned however, and I can't put into words my excitement to join thousands of people across Australia to watch The Force Awakens' midnight premiere later this week.
But to discover where the love began I, like so many others, have to go back to my childhood.
There is something about the ability to immerse yourself in a limitless, fictional world that appeals to me.
The fact you can explore a universe where your imagination is the only boundary is an idea on which children thrive but we tend to lose as adults.
Star Wars will forever be my sandbox.
I was born a little more than 12 years after the original film was released, but I would have watched what is now known as Episode IV: A New Hope literally hundreds of time.
The same can be said for the rest of the original trilogy.
George Lucas' creation was closed enough to create three great science fiction films that still hold up, but was so open you could imagine any scenario and it could apply in the Star Wars universe.
I rewatched A New Hope on Sunday night, and between now and Thursday's midnight premiere of The Force Awakens will relive Empire Strikes Back and Return of the Jedi.
Episode Three: Revenge of the Sith was the first midnight premiere I attended, and I have never forgotten the experience.
Grown men dressed as stormtroopers, lightsaber battles in the main foyer and half-hour podraces (wheelbarrow races) inside the cinema waiting for the lights to go out - all memories I hold dear.